Number 2?

Yes, I am constantly being thrown the question of having a second child now and again. 

People were more interested to ask this question as opposed to asking how I was coping or how my baby was progressing / recent developments.

What's wrong with me having one child for now? 

As if having ONE child is a sign that I'm a selfish mother ... that I don't wish to conceive another.

At times, I just want to be mean and ask them back these questions:

Would you like to conceive for me?

Carry the baby the entire 9 months for me?

Deliver the baby for me, be it SVD or C-Sec?

Endure the 40-day or 100-days confinement period for me?

Care for the new baby AND at the same time, my Lil' Rainbow for me?

Have sleepless nights as baby transitions from the womb into the world and have difficulty sleeping?

Breastfeed baby and suffer cracked nipples for me?

Suffer baby blues for me?

I can list out several other questions and am soooo interested to know how they answer!

Ok, I'm not THAT mean ... I won't ask those questions despite me having the urge to do so and mentally asking them and calming myself down at the same time! 

In turn, I'd just smile and say, "No plans yet."

THEN when you thought it would end there ... they'll go, "But WHY? You're not getting any younger" or "She needs a younger sibling to play with" or "At least you need 2 kids so that it won't get lonely when they grow up" bla bla bla bla bla bla!!!!!!

They have NO idea ... 

That I'm scared ... 

Of getting pregnant again and delivering a second baby ... 

It hurts, really does. 

Every step of the first delivery is still fresh in my mind and it seems so recent, though it has been almost 17 months ago.

But some people just can't empathize and even compared me with other mothers who have more than one child. 

Let me be, please, for now. 

It's my body and it is me who has to endure it ... not you ... 

I'm SICK of the question ... 

I either just smile and not say a word or avoid the question entirely (change subject).

When the time comes for me to get pregnant the second time, it will come and I shall leave that to God the Almighty.

It is MY second child so let me do things MY way ... 

If I happen to conceive, it's God's will and I shall accept it wholeheartedly.